I too know the pain of a hurting mind. I have rapid cycling bipolar and go through many moods/emotions quickly. Medicine has not helped so I struggle. I knew something was wrong when I could not quit talking at a social gathering and really embarrassed my wife. The sad part was I did not know it was happening. I was totally somewhere else. About 8 years ago I became very suicidal and had to have an intervention at my place of employment. The man who helped me (not a Witness) later committed suicide himself. He had high regard for Jehovah's Witnesses. I found myself feeling for guilty for him ending his life. But all I heard was how selfish he was. He was not selfish he was hurting. I go through peaks and valleys with my emotions, some days better than others. I have learned so much about myself and my disease. I do my best to help others. I make comments that are downright painful to me when I talk of my pain. But I know it will help someone. Someone needs to know you can be in pain and continue. That you are not alone in your feelings is sometimes all one needs to know. I am often like Robin Williams making others laugh, but can't make myself laugh. I seek happiness, but it continues to elude me. I don't have his talent by any means, but I do understand the pain he comes from and it hurts bad. I have given that pain to Jehovah and he sustains me. I am not sure why, but I do know that Jehovah cares for me, more than I do for myself. I have a strong bond to him,like a 5 year old holding daddy's hand. Let your Kingdom come, let your Kingdom come.... With many tears while I wrote this....Your Brother in Christ, Gregg