Im not sure if I'm posting this in the right place

[Kaydon]

I hope that all of you enjoy happiness in joy. But now is the last time for the world. This is a time of greater confusion and urgency than ever before. As we live through this difficult life, we become fixated on the Scriptures and truth, which are the words of God. I wish you all encouragement. Because I need it too. Until recently, I believed that almost all of my prayers were being answered in some way. Except for prayers asking only to be given a spouse. For decades, I have earnestly prayed that you would introduce me to a good spouse and help me prepare to become one. I offered specific and varied prayers, strove to live in accordance with them, and fought hard to maintain my purity. But my wait has been too long, and now I am growing utterly exhausted. I am gripped by loneliness, feeling a lack of affection and depression, unquenched by the fellowship within the congregation. I have worked very hard for a very long time and prayed a great deal. However, none of my prayers related to obtaining a spouse have received a positive response. I have become so self-loathing that I feel pain. I feel inadequate, unqualified, and that there is not even hope. What advice can you give me? I am a 40-year-old regular pioneer and a man serving as a servant.

[dreamy]

Dear Br. Yi,

Your post definitely belongs to this sub forum :

Comfort, Consolation, Support & Recovery

This area is closed to public view especially for a subject that is quite personal. Contact a moderator to shift your Topic and renamed the title. 
Regarding the problem you are now facing, I would recommend that you do not be super focused on your need to find a spouse. Sometimes one’s desperation can scared away a potential mate. Jehovah will provide whatever it is that you need to get through these troublesome times. I would recommend looking for JW friends in nearby countries like Indonesia. It doesn’t have to do with matrimony in mind. 
Wishing you all the best in your search for friends

Edited 8 hours ago by dreamy

[careful]

dear brother....loneliness is awful and is felt by many of jehovahs people...married or single.  The only cure for it in my opinion, is to give of yourself to others in many ways.   Preach with your spiritual family....make a meal for a sick one...give a gift...smile to those that appear sad...the list goes on and on.  Happiness can be found even when single.