Okay... It's been a while since I have been here and posted. A lot has happened since my last posting.
My wife ended up going to ICU for pneumonia. While there, she got an infection started in her foot. She asked the doctor to have it fixed or at least checked out. He flat out refused! He said, "No, you and your significant other can go to a regular doctor to have that checked out. We don't have time here." And he turned and left the room. My wife was like, "Does he think I am a lesbian?" That is the only reason, that I can think of, for a doctor to say 'significant other'.
Anyways, she spent 3 days there, then they released her. She came home, still miserable. Not feeling right. She was feverish, throwing up, the whole nine yards of something really nasty. So I put her in the car, and took her to a different hospital in another city. They immediately took her in. They were flabbergasted the ICU wouldn't do anything. They scanned her foot and noticed 5 large abscesses. She had emergency surgery to remove them, and while in there they noticed a really NASTY infection. They decided to leave it open to drain. The very next day they drained out 55cc of pus, that is equivalent to 1/2 cup of coffee. She was in that hospital for a week, and 2 surgeries to have it fixed. She is now back home with a PICC line.
Then my mom broke some heartbreaking news to me, my ex-sister in law, and her two daughters wrote letters, disassociating themselves!!! The oldest daughter was just accepted as a regular pioneer, she was an avid interpreter for the ASL congregation. She would go to BC, Canada and to California for the assemblies to interpret there as well, she was also accepted this past summer for the RBC. She disassociated herself. I am still in such a state of shock that I hope when I go to bed tonight, and wake up in the morning that this was all just a dream.
I don't understand peoples reason to leave Jehovah. Especially when things are going from bad to worse! Pretty soon the cost of milk is going up to $8/gallon. Going along with the scripture, "Bread will cost a day's wage."
I will admit, that since we moved to Columbus, we haven't made a meeting all due to severe illnesses!!! Pneumonia, surgeries, stomach flus, viruses, etc... This is getting way to nutty for me. We came here to help my sister get back and forth to the meetings as it is hard for her worldly husband to do it. I was asked to study with her son.
I feel like everything is just spinning out of control for me, and I don't know how to get the room to stop spinning and restart. I need to say, "Okay, I am starting at point A, not point K and going back and forth."
Seems like everyone I know is getting df'd or leaving altogether. I just found out a brother from my previous congregation is df'd again. I told the brother that told me, "There will be a point they can tell him he can't come back." He's been df'd so many times!!!
I just don't know what to do. I feel that when I pray, I am in an empty room and nobody's listening. I hate that feeling. Alone, desperate, nobody to hear, nobody to hold your hand and say, "Son, everything will be ok."
Well, I think I talked to much, so I will go for now. Thanks all for letting me vent, and being such close personal friends that I feel comfortable enough to talk to you all at this level. I only met a couple of you in person, but feel that we all know each other well!!!
Agape!!!