Beautiful thoughts and expressions!
It's never easy being the support for someone else, especially someone you've known they were a child or vice versa. The more history you have with that person...the harder it becomes to be objective, truly objective.
This is where it gets hard to be a Witness sometimes...because we are told to love everyone, we are commanded to expand and expand...and expand.
We're told that by worrying about other people, we won't have any time to worry about ourselves. While this is true, it's also extremely exhausted, mentally and in every other way you can possibly imagine...and some you can't.
When you decide to take a mental step backwards and look at what's really going on with yourself...you see pretty quickly what you are actually doing...you are a juggler...doing your best to hold on to four balls at once while 10 more dance in the air around you.
You aren't that good, I'm not either. We both know Jehovah is helping you keep all those balls dancing in the air. Others may see you as amazing...they wonder how you keep it all together.
The truth is, you have no idea either. Most days it feels like the balls have long since fallen and you will soon be relegated to crawling around on the floor, desperately trying to collect them all.
This is where Jehovah's spirit comes in, this is where the Almighty holds you together, keeps your arms working smoothly as you continue to juggle.
Writing is an outlet in which humans express everything going on in their conscious mind...until the subconscious feels left out and starts forcing its way onto the page.
I'll bet if you really think about it, some of what you wrote may have been a revelation even to yourself. I'll bet if you really stop to think about it, you may have even uncovered an idea or two of how to deal with things going forward.
That's the beauty of writing, that's the incredible gift Jehovah has given us when spoken words just don't seem like enough.
Thank you for allowing us a window into what's going on with you. A lot of people on this site may read what you write and never tell you how it made them feel, how your words affected them.
When that happens, don't lose heart. Don't give up, don't quit writing.
Why?
Because you are in the best of company.
Jehovah's words have changed the lives of millions upon millions of people...some have thanked him, some have worshiped him...some even live by it, having no idea that he is the origin of it.
And yet others refuse to acknowledge him or that he even exists.
But none of that changes the fact that these are his ideas, his words as expressed by other humans.
So even if it seems like a lot of people are reading while no one is saying a word...just know that you're in good company...and keep writing...keep expressing yourself...because that's what Jehovah does!