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Hi Tim, It took a lot of humility and courage to finally admit there is some "hidden" anger inside you toward Jehovah. So I sent you a PM. Please let me know if you received it, thanks!

Permit me to digress. If you were angry at Jehovah, Jehovah understands it's normal. Like one shouldn't be ashamed to say, "oh am hungry." Being angry is a normal reaction when: 1. You don't understand why a situation persists that is not to your liking (see Habakuk) 2. Or you understand but you don't know why it's allowed to continue (first century Christians must have expressed that sentiment hence 2 Peter 3:15,16). 3. It's more painful when events seem to be out of your control (that's why Elijah ran away even after killing 70 prophets of Baal). And you have Jehovah, you know he's the Sovereign of the universe, the all powerful, most powerful that no one can ask him, "what have you been doing!?" That's ironic and contradictory. So Jehovah understands why we're angry if and when we say we're angry. Sincerely I have been in the past until I realized I am not the only one. Righteous servants of God in the past shared my sentiment. But what helped me get a balanced view of the situation. Just one word: Trust. Do I trust Jehovah is acting for my good even though I might not understand how? Do I trust Jehovah always does the right thing? Do I trust that Jehovah that Jehovah's love covers me, an imperfect ant, that does wrong once in a while who has no right to even be angry at such Holy of Holies? When I decided the definite answer was YES to all 3, tears came to my eyes. I realized it was my little perception of events or anxiety due to world conditions and mine. I learned to trust more. To believe the vision will not delay. It's panting towards its accomplishment. I just need to handover control to Jehovah and que sera sera. So it doesn't bother me anymore. Whether the mountains tumble into the sea, or the Sun misses a rotation for a second (forgotten who said that), I just seat at the back seat, knowing my driver is the best driver in the world. So I do my best and leave the rest into his arms. Just to share. Because we all love you. 🫶

Don't worry, the list keeps increasing and options keep coming every now and then. We don't have to like all the songs the same way but we have to remember that they are all designed to praise Jehovah. As long as they are still doing that we're fine. Even if we don't get to sing our favorite songs at the meetings as often as we'd love to, we can still sing them when we're alone enjoying our personal time or doing chores.

Thank you so much for sharing these thoughts. 🩵

My Dear Brother, thank you for sharing this with us. Just know that Jehovah loves you and so do we, you are never alone or forgotten, Jehovah see's you, he sees your heart, your tears, your pain, he just hasnt spoken yet. We must all have patience my friend and hold on until he does speak. Don't give up because what is the alternative, we arre too far into these last days, Paradise is right around the corner. May Jehovah Be With You Always. Sent from my SM-G990U2 using Tapatalk

Good Night!! We love you too!!

"Are you angry at Jehovah?" After being asked this on my last post...I have been mulling this thought over and over again in my mind. Honestly, how on earth am I supposed to address this question...no, please...hear me out...how am I REALLY supposed to address this question? (And I'm not mad that it was brought to my attention...please keep reading...you'll see!) What does it really mean to be angry at Jehovah? Realistically, it sounds as stupid, (and as pointless), as being angry at the sun shining...at the wind for blowing...at myself...for existing. But am I? Am I REALLY angry at Jehovah? Truthfully...yes...yes I am. I didn’t want to type those words. I didn’t want to see it in writing. But pretending I WASN’T angry...wasn’t making me any more faithful. It was just making me more tired...more worn out...and the hurt and the pain just continued to bleed through. I didn’t know what to do with that. How do you talk to Jehovah...about being angry at Jehovah? How do you engage in that conversation with him without feeling like you’re crossing some invisible line? Honestly... I didn't even know if I WAS truly mad at Jehovah...I just knew I was worn down, and every new delay of dealing with these feelings...felt like another layer of weight on my chest. Then the strangest thing happened, (and at the strangest place, ironically enough, AT THE MIDWEEK MEETING), a brother reached out...someone who’s currently wading neck deep through his own terrible life circumstances. Now, please understand...this brother didn’t know about this question being addressed with me. He didn’t know what I had admitted to myself. He didn’t know the place I was in. But, after the meeting, he approached me, gave me a quick hug...and handed me a slip of paper with a verse written on it. Now, please believe me when I say that this was not one of the usual "comfort" verses. Not something polished and familiar that we all love to hear when we're facing times of distress. No, this was all together different. I didn't have a chance to look at it until I got home that evening, but after I read it...I simply had to call him and find out WHY he had recommended that particular verse. It was something gritty...something raw...something so unexpected and off-putting that honestly, it almost felt WRONG. What's the verse? You guys know me by now, I'm not going to leave you hanging: Job 7:19: “Will you never turn your gaze away from me, or leave me alone until I swallow my saliva?” In all my years as a Witness, I have NEVER seen that verse used to encourage ANYONE. I had to do some digging, because on the surface, it sounds obvious: I mean...it SOUNDS like Job is pushing Jehovah away, like he’s had enough of being under God’s gaze. But the more I sat with it, the more I tried to really put myself in his "bare feet"...the more I started to FEEL like Job wasn’t trying to get away from Jehovah at all. He wasn’t saying, “Stop looking at me.” He was saying, “If you’re looking at me this closely…then WHY am I still like this?” Job wasn’t asking Jehovah to look away. He was asking WHY BEING "SEEN"...DIDN'T MAKE ANYTHING BETTER. That’s not distance. That’s someone who still believes Jehovah is close enough to do something, and is hurting because he hasn’t done anything YET. This new line of thought made me think about my own anger in a way I wasn’t expecting. I kept trying to figure out what it meant that I was angry at Jehovah. I kept wondering if that meant I was slipping, or drifting, or losing something I didn’t want to lose. But the more I think about Job’s words, the more something quiet has started forming in the back of my mind...something I didn’t see coming...and the more I think I'm starting to understand what that brother was trying to tell me. If my pain still turns me back in his direction, then I haven’t lost him. If my frustration still causes me to reach towards him, then I don't hate him. If I’m still speaking to him...even in anger...then I’m still searching for him. No, Job wasn’t trying to get away from Jehovah. He was simply trying to UNDERSTAND why being held in God’s sight...didn’t STOP the hurt. Friends, that’s not rebellion. That’s someone who hasn’t let go of the only person who he feels can save him It’s strange how that realization settled in. I spent quite a bit of time over the past few days thinking my anger means I'm drifting away...when the truth is that anger like this only moves TOWARD someone you still believe is there...someone you still expect something from...someone you still think can change the situation. And that’s when it finally clicked for me...the reason this brother gave me that particular verse. He looked at me and saw the same hurt and anger in my eyes as he felt himself...and after speaking to him...he straight out admitted that he didn't come up with that verse on his own, his wife had given it to him just before she started slipping away into dementia. He struggled to get the words out over the phone...but he reminded me that his wife was a nurse and therefore she KNEW what was coming for herself...and she wanted him to prepare for the anger that HE was going to feel towards Jehovah. He said that she spent more time with him in those last couple of months then they had in years...he said it felt like they were dating all over again. I honestly don't know which one of us was crying the harder at this point...he was struggling to get the words out, I had never seen him like this. He seems like a very stoic brother...but he opened up to me on the phone in a way I didn't expect. He said he could tell when she started phasing out, there would be times when she would be lucid and he said he started to treasure every single one of those moments. We finally reached a point where neither one of us could really talk...we just sat on the phone and had a few seconds of mutual silence. Finally he said that one of the last real conversations he had with his wife involved them discussing Job again...and he said she absolutely floored him by saying..."When you start to REALLY feel the pain...please don't mistake Jehovah's silence for distance...you're just in the part of the story where Jehovah hasn't spoken yet." And that's where I'm going to end this post...I'm going to go to sleep tonight with that thought on my mind...I'm just in that part of the story where Jehovah hasn't spoken...yet.

Look, I KNOW the Biographies online are OPTIONAL. I am aware of that.....Optional or not, I don't think Kindergarteners need to know about Chaz Bono, Billie Jean King or Harvey Milk. My son will probably get curious about the people on this list and why they are on the list. Crazy thing is...I'M IN SOUTH CAROLINA. I didnt even know we were this wild. Thing is, i wonder how many parents have even looked into the book. Now i'm wondering what's in my other son's text books @_@. My son is 5, he doesnt need to know about this stuff yet (I am fine if he learns about it eventually, i mean lgbt people exists, he'll probably go to high school with people like that i'm sure. But right now, IMO kids (That arent around it naturally (Like have parents in that category)) dont need to know this stuff. This is as bad as when he told me last year that girls can have wackers (penises) (teacher didn't teach that, he got it from another student)....anyways i'm done with my rant.....for now....I dont know where else i can talk about this at where i'm not going to get ridiculed (Or yelled at because its 9PM where im at and i'm sure people are wanting to go to bed) https://www.californiafamily.org/2017/11/new-california-curriculum-seeks-to-transform-how-children-view-gender-and-their-sexual-idenity/ <---- a run down of who some of the people featured in this book are

I mean its possible especially if they have speakers coming from different congregations and they all have the same song in their heart. If that was an Elder..... Chairman: The speaker has requested song 437... Me: NO....NO...PLEASE......not again....this is the fifth week in a row, please.... And this is why Jehovah made me a girl because he knows i cant keep my mouth shut and not have salt mouth, or whatever the phrase is...speak with grace or something...idk

Wouldn't they be played the same everywhere? We all follow the same spiritual program every week. Unless your public speakers are choosing the same songs every week. 😂 🤷🏻‍♂️

Monday, August 24 My God is my rock of refuge.—Ps. 94:22. Jehovah is a refuge. Just as a huge rock can be a person’s hiding place from a threatening storm, Jehovah safeguards us when we face situations that threaten our well-being. He keeps us safe and prevents us from suffering lasting harm. And he promises even more: He will eventually eliminate whatever threatens our peace and security. (Ezek. 34:25, 26) One way we make Jehovah our rocklike Refuge is by praying to him. When we pray, Jehovah gives us “the peace of God” that safeguards our heart and mind. (Phil. 4:6, 7) Jehovah is always there for us. We can trust him because he is “the eternal Rock.” (Isa. 26:3, 4) He will always be alive to keep his promises, hear our prayers, and give us the support we need. We can also depend on Jehovah because he is loyal to those who serve him. (2 Sam. 22:26) He will never forget what we do, and he will always reward us.—Heb. 6:10;11:6. w24.06 27 ¶4-6

That's a newish song, so i gave it slack, it's also a banger ❤️ I try to not dislike any of the songs (even the boring ones that just reminds me of like an old school version church (Think Little House on the Prairie). There's a song we sung a few months ago, it doesnt have a chorus, and it's really slow. It's like 4 minutes long, I was not happy about it ;-; (I THINK it was a song we sung near the time of the memorial, which explains why i dont remember it, its one of those once a year songs) That's a middle of the road song for me. I don't love it, but i dont hate it, it's like "Yeah i can vibe with it", I think the melody itself keeps it on my good side. Yes, this past week midweek meeting, first song. My other favorites: Throw Your Burden on Jehovah, Give Me Courage, Our Joy Eternally, With Eyes of faith (This song actually grew on me, i did not care for it at first), Peace at Last, It Will not be late, Give Jehovah Glory, Good News, To Do Your Will is my Delight (100% it's because of the music with "This Joy I feel, This joy is real", i dont know why but that riff...amazing). Life without End At Last the crescendo with the chorus......<3 yes please. I probably have a few more favorites (Searching for Friends, Reaching Out, but they are songs from when i first joined so those are more because of nostalgia.)

We used to sing Give jehovah glory a lot some months ago 😂

I have irrational dislike of several songs, okay probably a little more than dislike. I won't mention them but when they are played I cringe and cannot make myself sing out like I usually would. I don't know why and I can't explain it. I just do not like some of them.

Agreed! Listen, obey and be blessed is not a favourite of mine, and I think we sing it too often, at the expence of other, very beautiful songs. The one that is being played over and over here, is "Gaining Jehovah’s Friendship". It's a wonder I don't know it by heart. (Nope, not a favourite that one either) (I don't remember the last time we played "Unfailing love". ) I wish we would use ALL the songs more, not the same ones over and over. I LOVE Lightness in a dark world! ❤️ Didn't we just sing it at a meeting? Other favourites: 159 Give Jehovah glory ❤️ (Maybe best song ever) 26 You did it for me ❤️ 156 With eyes of faith ❤️ Just to mention a few.

Maybe i need more reminders to throw my burdens on Jehovah or that there is more with us than against us

May we view them as reminders from Jehovah. Ps 119:111

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Disclaimer: I am NOT saying I hate these songs or that they are bad. I feel like I have a love/hate relationship with "Unfailing Love" and "Listen, Obey, and Be Blessed". I feel they are used, repeatedly and so often compared to other songs (I'm giving slack to new songs that will probably be sung quite often after released). A while ago, i don't know HOW it happened but we sung Unfailing Love three weeks straight (I think once it was for the watch tower, once for the weekday meeting, and the speaker chose the song for their talk. I talked about this with another sister and we kind of had a laugh about the songs she felt were overly played as well. There's really no point to this thread besides "I wish more songs were used." I mean there are some songs we sing and i feel like i never heard them before because they are probably MAYBE used once or twice a year. I was hyped about "Lightness in a Dark World" actually being selected for the first time in I don't know when last meeting (Actually i think the last time i remember singing it was at the 2025 convention......so over a year ago....) A side note...i feel that Unfailing Love is also the most played song in the convention music videos, either that or i'm not realizing that the same convention videos are being played to me over and over when i hit the "Random" button.

I created a Virtual Machine (VM) that is just a linux OS intall to house AI agents. I use Claude Code, Gemini, and Codex. They all have full access to the machine and update each other's memory. Some agents are better at certain tasks, and they are instructed to use each other as needed (they can call each other as needed for whatever task required). When doing research, I can have one grab the information, one arrange the data in a digestible information, and the other to verify the logic and scrutinize the logic. Side note: Fable is a gamechanger.

This was a Codex AI project I spent a few hours on yesterday, to help me in my Bible study & research. I took all the Indexes from 2001-2024 and combined them into a single PDF, de-duping any entries it may of found, keeping all the clickable links. This is an example of the output, in .pdf format, of a simple prompt: "Using links found in the master_index on Jesus, Son of God, Firstborn and research on *j.w.org, can you bring together a compelling argument that Jesus is truly the son of God, separate and God's first born of creation and is no part of a Trinity as taught by Christendom. Don't rush, take your time and follow all leads that build on your reasoning." Jesus - God's Firstborn I asked Codex for a summary of how it used both the master_index and direct *.jw.org web search. " 75–85% index-led: The headings and relevant leads—JESUS CHRIST, SON OF GOD, FIRSTBORN, TRINITY, specific proof texts, and most publication references—came from the combined index. 15–25% web-search-led: JW.org search helped locate cleaner/current versions, Study Bible notes, and readable direct URLs. Nearly 100% of the detailed evidence was read live on JW.org/WOL, because the index supplies references and links, not the full article content. So the index largely determined what to investigate; live JW.org pages supplied what the sources actually said. I did not review all 2,891 links under JESUS CHRIST; I followed the index subentries relevant to sonship, firstborn status, creation, subordination, and Trinity proof texts."

A strong, shallow 6.0 has struck near Honcho in Japan. That is the third strong quake to strike in the past 48 hours.

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I infinitely concur.