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Myew last won the day on February 20 2017

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About Myew

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    Elite Member

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    Doubting my ability to cope with human contact
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    Treetop Terrace, Spider Plains of Missouri
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  • Baptized

How I Found the Truth

  • How I found the Truth
    I was raised by Witness parents, knowing the Bible and loving Jehovah from infancy. However, I did not have strong active spiritual role models or goals, and had plenty of mental disorders. I developed several debilitating chronic illnesses starting around puberty, and felt stumbled due to fragrances causing me such pain. I didn't make any more spiritual progress and stopped attending meetings, but I continued to listen over the phone for about 15 years. My faith and spiritual habits steadily declined as I sank deeper into isolation and depression. (Pr 18:1) I lived a virtual life, addicted to the computer and internet for literal days at a time, and eventually hit rock bottom. I was in chronic fatigue, pain, sleep deprivation and suffered some brain damage, having no reason to live and always wishing for death. I came to realize one day, probably thanks to a witness online who sent me a talk, that I would never be happy focusing on myself. Jehovah never caused my suffering, he was still providing for my needs despite my selfish lifestyle, and he wanted to help me to come to serve him. However, I had to be willing to make changes, to show Jehovah that I wanted to come to know him better, to serve him and to trust him. I started a new routine of Bible reading and prayer, and started learning how to eat better so that I could perhaps reverse my disorders. However, I was still trapped in many addictive habits. In time, I was desperately praying for spiritual friends to replace my bad association. Jehovah sent a new Elder in the congregation to me, a former missionary and regular pioneer, probably the most zealous minister that I have ever met. Jehovah was also training him to learn patience as he spent years taking the time to write and talk with me, encouraging me and helping me to start studying again, becoming my closest friend. I started taking my health very seriously, viewing my diet and lifestyle as a way of giving my best to Jehovah, in order to become physically strong enough to worship him. Eventually, I became well enough that I was able to endure attending meetings, later followed by becoming a publisher thanks to letter writing, later still able to do a little door to door work and participate in meetings, and finally progressing to baptism after a total of some 6 years it took me to 'Return to Jehovah'. Jehovah has guided and supported me each step of the way, as long as I fully commit myself to relying on him and doing his will.

My Hobbies & Interests

  • My Interests
    I am a religious Cat-holic*. (Addicted to all things feline. Thanks, Toxoplasmosis!)
    Some of my favorite pastimes include computers, technology, gaming, pixel and line art, storytelling, music, tiny homes, and the inconceivably vast cosmos.
  • My favorite books
    New World Novels! My favorite writing is campy, humorous, satirical. Calvin & Hobbes is my favorite comic. I'm especially partial to stories of tragedy and hope - Ruth is my favorite book in the scriptures. I enjoy the typical Sci-fi/Space Opera fare: Dr Who, Hitchhiker's Guide, Star Trek, Star Wars, War of the Worlds. Aside from the Bible, I haven't read physical books in years, I don't have the focus or patience anymore. I do like audiobooks.
  • My favorite music
    Background music, scores and soundtracks, especially classic video game composers. More traditional styles I prefer are alternative, ambient, downtempo, epic orchestral, techno, and world music. Kingdom dirges & marches, Blue Man Group, John Williams, Jake Kaufman, Manami Matsumae, Hiroki Kikuta, Yoko Kanno.
  • My favorite movies
    Humor, tragedy, and science fiction. The Princess Bride, Cast Away, Jurassic Park, Star Wars.
  • My favorite quotes
    (Psalm 73:26) My body and my heart may fail, But God is the rock of my heart and my portion forever.

    (Nehemiah 8:10) He said to them: “Go, eat the choice things and drink what is sweet, and send portions of food to those who have nothing prepared; for this day is holy to our Lord, and do not feel sad, for the joy of Jehovah is your stronghold.”

    (2 Corinthians 1:3, 4) Praised be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of tender mercies and the God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our trials so that we may be able to comfort others in any sort of trial with the comfort that we receive from God.

    "You have two options. Either let this world drive you mad, or /choose/ to be insane." - Myew
    "I've got PLENTY of common sense! I just choose to ignore it. :D" - Calvin
    "As Christian as as possible under the circumstances." - Myew
    "Afflicted with Catabolic Analysis Paralysis." - Myew
    "As you wish." - Dwead Piwate Westley
    "Yes, I am just a little broken."

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  1. Took me 5 minutes to find it. x_x Needs more contrast. Thank you.
  2. Myew


    Pretty sure mine are hazel, brown center with green around it, but used to be more green. Why does everything turn brown when you grow up? 😕
  3. So today I can only hear Laurel via the same headphones. I cannot hear Yanny on any of them... and people wonder why I get anxious when my nervous system feels like it's being rewired day by day?
  4. Yanny, via headphones.
  5. I'm fine with being logical. Being logical is the only way that I can prepare for anything or follow through. Nobody can really say for sure how they will react in an emotional situation out of their control. (Jeremiah 17:9) The heart is more treacherous than anything else and is desperate. Who can know it? (Proverbs 28:26) Whoever trusts in his own heart is stupid, But the one who walks in wisdom will escape. I don't feel that I'm dismissing the emotional context at all. Rather, I'm trying to direct people to the only solution that will allow them to cope and heal, because I have been through much of it myself. I know too well that even within the truth, many people hear the Bible's counsel on how to deal with trauma, but never actually listen, they don't take it to heart, they don't give in to Jehovah's compassion and mercy, and then they suffer far worse. Of course, I am in the wrong to think that someone can be forced to accept help, as usual. It has to come from within their own heart. They have to be willing to accept the help themselves. 'The heart is a door that can only be unlocked from the inside.' I guess we can do nothing more than try to show love and be 'hospitable without grumbling.', hoping that someday they will accept and appreciate help. I'm just bitter from seeing too many people being hardhearted and never taking that step, even given decades, and ingraining mental disorders into their children. (Job 6:25) Honest words are not painful! But what benefit can be found in your reproof? (Proverbs 14:10) The heart knows its own bitterness, And no outsider can share in its joy. I don't see why we can't apply Jehovah's principles from the mosaic law in our lives today. His attitude and feelings on such matters have not changed. (Malachi 3:5, 6) “I will come near to you for judgment, and I will be a swift witness against the sorcerers, against the adulterers, against those who take false oaths, against those who defraud the hired worker, the widow, and the fatherless child, and against those who refuse to help the foreigner. These have not feared me,” says Jehovah of armies. 6 “For I am Jehovah; I do not change." I also don't understand what 'damaged goods' has to do with our modern context. No loving Christian would view a person in that way. Rahab was a prostitute, but she became the mother to Boaz, who took in Ruth when she was a widow. Jehovah blessed both with husbands and put them in line as descendants of the Messiah for acting with faith. (James 2:24, 25) "You see that a man is to be declared righteous by works and not by faith alone. 25 In the same manner, was not Raʹhab the prostitute also declared righteous by works...?" (Ruth 2:11, 12) Boʹaz answered her: “A full report was made to me of all you have done for your mother-in-law after the death of your husband and how you left your father and your mother and the land of your relatives to go to a people whom you had not known before. 12 May Jehovah reward you for what you have done, and may there be a perfect wage for you from Jehovah the God of Israel, under whose wings you have come to seek refuge.” Everything I have ever read indicates that Jehovah is begging and pleading for people who have been abused to take action so that he can give them inner peace. https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/101990170#h=11 The Bible does not say that God miraculously shields his people from harm. God’s laws to Israel indicated that rape could befall faithful servants of God. (Deuteronomy 22:23-27) However, God has provided us with Scriptural direction that can work for our benefit if we apply it. And the Bible-based advice on resisting rape proved to be a protection for the woman in question. Appropriately, she thanked God for providing this helpful information.—ED. https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/101993163 How to Cope with Rape (Awake! 1993) Forgive me if I have taken this off topic... I am very thankful that we have the new packet to help people understand clearly what steps to take to prevent abuse, and to protect children in the event that it happens. It's one of the worst things that can happen to anyone, yet we are not left in the dark about what actions we should take. Nothing compares to how Jehovah cares for and teaches his servants.
  6. I've never been able to understand how people can reach the conclusion that the correct course or right thing to do is hide a matter and act like it didn't happen. I've never personally felt it was right to go along with this attitude. Still, I sadly admit that I've gone without saying things that I feel I should have, or have often given in to others wishes to comply with their feelings when it comes to emotional issues, even when I disagreed. I have been in the very situation you are describing, not among Witnesses, before I made the truth my own. It still continues to bother my conscience, I feel that my actions were hypocritical, and I am still angry at myself for not having done more. I was just a dumb kid who didn't understand. Yes, it will hurt severely to accept that someone you trusted took advantage of you and to then admit it openly. They may have abusive brothers, and fathers, and grandfathers, and feel that they have no one else to turn to or trust. Yet, unresolved trauma will fester, leading to far worse problems and permanent emotional scars, even brain damage. However, we as Witnesses must realize that we have Jehovah to protect us and his principles to guide us. We must not rely on our own understanding, we must put our trust in him. Following his instruction is the only way that anyone can be able to cope with and overcome such trauma. In order to be righteous and have a clear conscience, we must not be deceitful, we must think and act in truth. Jehovah will see to it that he will care for us and that justice is done if we simply do what he says. Our thoughts lead to our feelings. We must accept Jehovah's thoughts before allowing our own stupid reasoning to turn into fear and become controlled by it. Jehovah also wants us to seek help, both from within and without. (Leviticus 5:1) “‘If someone sins because he has heard a public call to testify and he is a witness or has seen or learned about it and he does not report it, then he will answer for his error. (Job 27:4) My lips will not speak unrighteousness; Nor will my tongue mutter deceit! (Job 27:6) I will maintain my righteousness and never let it go; My heart will not condemn me as long as I live. (Psalm 15:1, 2) O Jehovah, who may be a guest in your tent? Who may reside in your holy mountain? 2 The one who is walking faultlessly, Practicing what is right And speaking the truth in his heart. (Psalm 15:4) He rejects anyone who is contemptible, But he honors those fearing Jehovah. He does not go back on his promise, even when it is bad for him. (Proverbs 29:23-25) The haughtiness of a man will humble him, But whoever is humble in spirit will obtain glory. 24 The partner of a thief hates himself. He may hear the call to testify, but he reports nothing. 25 Trembling at men is a snare, But the one trusting in Jehovah will be protected. (Zechariah 8:16) “‘These are the things you should do: Speak the truth with one another, and the judgments in your gates must promote truth and peace. If this were to happen to me now, I would do my best to thank her for doing and saying the right thing. I'd try to help her to understand that her admitting this is a clear sign that she cannot bear it on her own, and needs to seek help. I would ask her to trust that Jehovah cares for her and wants to protect her, and that the step he wants us to take is to turn to the authorities as well as the congregation. If she still doesn't listen, I would feel hurt and very sad, but I would pray and ask Jehovah to give me the strength to make sure that those who should know, do know. (Romans 13:3-5) For those rulers are an object of fear, not to the good deed, but to the bad. Do you want to be free of fear of the authority? Keep doing good, and you will have praise from it; 4 for it is God’s minister to you for your good. But if you are doing what is bad, be in fear, for it is not without purpose that it bears the sword. It is God’s minister, an avenger to express wrath against the one practicing what is bad. 5 There is therefore compelling reason for you to be in subjection, not only on account of that wrath but also on account of your conscience. (James 5:13-16) Is there anyone suffering hardship among you? Let him carry on prayer. Is there anyone in good spirits? Let him sing psalms. 14 Is there anyone sick among you? Let him call the elders of the congregation to him, and let them pray over him, applying oil to him in the name of Jehovah. 15 And the prayer of faith will make the sick one well, and Jehovah will raise him up. Also, if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven. 16 Therefore, openly confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, so that you may be healed. A righteous man’s supplication has a powerful effect. (Ecclesiastes 8:11) Because sentence against a bad deed has not been executed speedily, the heart of men becomes emboldened to do bad. Jesus gave us this illustration to show that we need to continue displaying a deep degree of consistent faith in order to have these scenarios resolved. (Luke 18:1-8) Then he went on to tell them an illustration about the need for them always to pray and not to give up, 2 saying: “In a certain city there was a judge who had no fear of God and no respect for man. 3 There was also a widow in that city who kept going to him and saying, ‘See that I get justice from my legal opponent.’ 4 Well, for a while he was unwilling, but afterward he said to himself, ‘Although I do not fear God or respect any man, 5 because this widow keeps making me trouble, I will see that she gets justice so that she will not keep coming and wearing me out with her demand.’” 6 Then the Lord said: “Hear what the judge, although unrighteous, said! 7 Certainly, then, will not God cause justice to be done for his chosen ones who cry out to him day and night, while he is patient toward them? 8 I tell you, he will cause justice to be done to them speedily. Nevertheless, when the Son of man arrives, will he really find this faith on the earth?” I still wonder with trembling if Jesus will find me acting in faith or in fear...
  7. I can't stop laughing at this clip. :'3
  8. It's really all the same, sisters. Since we have such a large database of publications and so many different people using them, it's a matter of preferences or hardware devices used to interact with them. You can read, watch or download anything current on www.JW.org to pretty much any device, but many witnesses find it easier to just use the study database on wol.jw.org or view media on tv.jw.org directly rather than www.JW.org, as the www address is primarily designed for the public. I pretty much only use www.JW.org for news and the lovely Bible Questions Answered section, which is succint with up to date references. WT Library was originally designed for Windows based PC if I remember correctly because that was what was simply the only mainstream digital option at the time. In recent years, mobile devices have become the mainstream, but the old software isn't necessarily compatible with the wide range of modern mobile operating systems, so they had to create JW Library for them. The Study Bible notes are all media based, so they can only be accessed by a digital medium. Due to how it's more or less interactive, it's not really practical to design it to be downloaded as a PDF or single file, unless you perhaps put all the notes at the end? of a chapter... so you can only download the Study Bible via JW Library, or use it online at www.JW.org/wol.JW.org. It's just preference and whatever is most practical for you. I'm reminded of... (Leviticus 26:10) While you are still eating the old produce of the preceding year, you will need to clear out the old to make way for the new.
  9. Stay was pretty short and I enjoyed it well enough, it kept me interested. Too many tragic cliffhangers can end up making me feel a bit blase however. I didn't care for the focus on the heartless rich guy , but it still does make me curious what kind of resolution the author has planned. He's good with that. Critical Times is still my favorite from EK Jonathan.
  10. (2 Peter 3:10) but the elements being intensely hot will be dissolved
  11. We had a game day after the meeting today, the first one in some time. Everyone brings their card, board games, etc. I did something a bit different... I brought my laptop and a few controllers, asked another to bring some controllers, and managed to get some 4 player Puyo Puyo Tetris going. Might be easier if I had Nintendo Switch, but this is much cheaper. Tetris is still a beautiful thing, and puzzle games are wonderful for your cognition.
  12. I grew up rather spoiled, despite the fact that we're poor, since I had very little discipline or restrictions set on my time, especially in video games. Saffron's advice is spot on, consistent and well understood boundaries for each individual depending on their abilities and circumstances. Rules, punishment and reward should be written down and the principles taught in such a way that the child can explain them. There are a huge amount of articles and resources in the research guide. It would be good to read many of them privately, listen to them repeatedly via audio if you're short on focus and time. Then choose specific ones such as young people ask or watchtower articles to study with your children during family worship. https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/1204075#h=192 https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/1204075#h=256 https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/1204075#h=274 https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/1204075#h=369 Some key articles: https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/2013087 When Your Child Is Disabled https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/102008329 Asperger's https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/101995089 Autism (A bit older, 1995) Discipline: https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/102015122 https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/102015123 https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/2014487 https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/102013002 https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/102013080 https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/102013163
  13. @Sylv You would want to ask him on his blog. https://ekjonathan.blogspot.com/2018/04/its-live.html#comment-form
  14. Myew

    What if? ...

    Housing would be still be incorporated into the earth, but integrated with some forms of non-harmful modern technology. We can store heat underground or in salt for months, our homes would be surrounded by thermal mass, and use cooling tube convection for air conditioning. We'd all be decomposing our old food and waste, and growing our own food. Technology-wise, everything would be made of glass, vantablack-painted 3d-printed graphene, and... carbon nanotube transistors.
  15. Suicides - A Resurrection? g90 9/8 p. 23 https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/101990648 We may be confident that ‘the Judge of all the earth is going to do what is loving, just, and right!’—Genesis 18:25

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