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THIS is the closest thing I could find to express my overwhelming awe at this moment...and though I PROMISE I will explain in a moment...please, please just take a moment to sit back, grab your favorite beverage...and join me as I take you on a gentle meander down my path of thought...that way each of you can see what led me to this point...and why it has me sitting here in a personal moment of the deepest sense of quiet contemplation that I have personally experienced in quite some time.
As most of you are well aware, my heart aches with the physical absence of my dear wife.
Every single day I struggle with this...not a moment goes by that I don't miss her deeply, that I don't long to come home and find her sitting curled up on the couch, her favorite blanket draped over her legs as she delves into a Watchtower study...or just reading her favorite magazine.
Some days I struggle to breathe when I think about it too much...other days I am kept so busy I go hours without even really being conscious that she is still gone...until one tiny thing happens that instantly reawakens the pain...like a bad tooth being lit up in pain at the mere touch of something ice cold.
I am slowly beginning to come back to life spiritually...that spark is buried too deeply inside me to ever really go out...but it's happening in fits and starts...my brain tells me that I NEED to get going...my heart nudges me towards Jehovah...but sometimes, like the coward I am...I run back and hide...waiting for the storm to blow over, waiting for the pain to subside.
I WANT to tell the friends what I am going through...but sometimes I don't have fancy explanations...sometimes I open my mouth and there simply ARE no words...only Jehovah's holy spirit can interpret what's happening inside me.
In the midst of all of this...I started a personal study project.
I wasn't looking for anything profound...I wasn't even looking for anything in particular.
I...I was simply trying to breathe again spiritually. I don't even remember HOW I ended up turning to this verse...but once I had read it...I couldn't stop thinking about it...a tiny little question popping up over and over again in the back of my mind...like popcorn kernels popping in an iron skillet...it kept bursting into life, over and over again until I simply had to address it.
The verse?
1 Corinthians 4:9; "For it seems to me that God has put us the apostles last on exhibition as men condemned to death, because we have become a theatrical spectacle to the world, and to angels and to men."
A theatrical spectacle...my my, do I ever feel like that now!
But the part that captivated me...the part that kept eating at me was simply three little words, "And to angels".
Of course, I KNOW the angels are interested in us: 1 Peter 1:12 makes that crystal clear, "Into these very things, angels are desiring to peer."
So of COURSE they want to know what's happening, of COURSE they have an avid, even an INTENSE interest in what's going on here on Earth.
But...but WHY??
I mean...beyond the obvious! Beyond the reasons we so often hear at the meetings..."They love us, they are part of Jehovah's heavenly organization"...beyond the hundred other reasons I could think of off hand...the one thought that kept creeping back into my head, over and over again was this: WHY ME???
Why Tim? Why specifically me??
What have I ever done to draw their attention?? (Besides be a total screw up and a perfect example of what NOT to do as a human)
Like...why ME?
So, as always...I hopped on my computer and started digging, rooting around on JW Online Library, fueled off coffee and hot cinnamon buns.
And friends...what I saw shocked me...it stunned me in a way I haven't been in years...and THAT is why I'm writing this post.
NOW, to explain the short video at the beginning of this post. After that question refused to leave my brain, I needed a break. I don't WHY I typed this into the search bar of my search engine...but I just did: "WHY ME??"
I started idly scrolling through a ton of meme's and songs and other things all dealing with the subject...and somehow I ended up clicking on this picture...a picture like this one:
Instantly, I was captivated...and not just because it LOOKED cool...but because it made me think of Jehovah for some weird reason...like raw power under containment.
So, I clicked on it...started doing some quick research on the scientific name "Lichtenberg figure"...and started making sudden links in my mind regarding my original question!
Friends, what you saw in that video wasn’t just “a cool science thing.” It’s called captured lightning...a moment when raw electrical power is forced into a block of clear acrylic and then released all at once.
In a single instant, the electricity tears through the material in thousands of tiny little branching paths…and then freezes there forever!
But friends, here's the crazy part: Every single pattern is completely unique.
The electricity doesn’t change...the laws behind it don’t change...and the power itself doesn’t change.
But the way that power expresses itself...the exact branching pattern it carves...depends entirely on the conditions it encounters in that one critical moment of time!
When I learned that… something inside me suddenly went very silent and still. Because suddenly, I realized this strange little lightning sculpture was the closest physical thing I had ever seen to what the Scriptures describe angels watching.
Want me to back that up from our own publications?
Here's what I found, what I have been meditating on for the past week:
"Then how is it that God makes known his greatly diversified wisdom through the congregation? In that what God does by, for and with this congregation serves as an illustration of the greatly diversified wisdom of God. This sacred secret is something for the angels to view with admiration and amazement, and so it can be said that through it these angelic creatures get to see the greatly diversified wisdom of God as they had not known it before." (Italics my own)
Questions From Readers — Watchtower ONLINE LIBRARY
Ready for another one? The one that actually blew my mind?
Here you go:
WHY ANGELS ARE INTERESTED
11. According to 1 Peter 1:12, how intense is the interest of the angels in the divine arrangement for salvation?
11 The example of the angels should also serve to encourage us to do our utmost to remain in God’s favor. Though having no personal need for the divine arrangement of salvation, faithful angels take a real interest in the outworking of God’s grand purpose for humankind. The apostle Peter wrote: “Into these very things [that occupied the attention of the Hebrew prophets] angels are desiring to peer.” (1 Peter 1:12) Yes, before the coming of Jesus Christ to this earth, the angels were desirous of knowing more about Christ’s sufferings, the “glories to follow these” and the impact of the “good news” on humankind. The apostle Peter could speak of them as “desiring to peer” into these matters. In the original Greek, the expression “to peer” suggests a stooping down with a view to scrutinizing an object more closely. But why were the angels so keenly interested in making a careful examination of Jehovah God’s revelation about salvation? As perfect spirit persons, why should the provisions for sinful, earthly humans particularly concern them?
12, 13. How might we explain the great interest of the angels in the salvation of mankind?
12 Since the angels are not all-knowing, they doubtless increase their knowledge by studiously considering God’s dealings and revelations. The arrangement for the redemption of the human race truly furnished a marvelous example of Jehovah’s love, justice, mercy and wisdom. Hence, by occupying themselves with gaining greater understanding of Jehovah’s arrangement for saving sinful mankind, the angels would come to appreciate their heavenly Father even more. They would learn things about his personality and ways that could not be discerned from a study or an examination of any other development in the universe.—Compare Ephesians 3:8-10.
Encouraging Aid to Stick to Our Decision — Watchtower ONLINE LIBRARY
Do you SEE that last line??
"They would learn things about his personality and ways that could not be discerned from a study or an examination of any other development in the universe."
That...that is quite literally giving me chills...still, at this very second!!
Angels who saw the creation of the earth, of mankind...angels who have been with Jehovah for untold millions of years...and yet here they are...ACTIVELY LEARNING brand new things about Jehovah's "personality and ways"...from the way that he deals with OUR unique situation.
I won't go any further with this post...I don't need to.
Jehovah answered my question in a way I didn't expect...and even though there are many other things at play in my particular situation...I cannot help but wonder: What NEW THINGS are those angels learning about Jehovah right now as my wife and I go through our situation?
And I will leave each of you with the same thought: What brand new aspects of Jehovah's personality are those angels learning from Jehovah about what YOU'RE going through...because YOU are the lightning that angels watch!